Divine Emptiness...

Father, my world is so full of You...
    If I pay attention and look for You, it isn't hard for me to enjoy the pleasure of Your company. You're all around me...

  I see You in the tender and gentle way my sweetheart lovingly cares for me.
  I see You as my beloved children constantly reassure me of their love and devotion.
  
  I see You when the new life of spring begins to show itself. The air changes and brings to me its sweet, warming, fragrant "spring is arriving" life renewing awareness.

  I see You as the beautiful song birds return to grace my refuge...my "Beside the still waters." 
A variety of tiny, adorable, feathered friends come to visit me outside my windows, feasting on seeds and nectar. They build their nests in my trees, and perform for me their own celebration of spring's welcome return after earth's chilling winter sleep.

  I see You in the trees as they bud and start to burst out with new life, and some prepare for lovely flowers that will fill the air with sweet smells, ushering in summer with its warmth and beauty--so much of Your awesome wonder to enjoy. Too much for me to take in and comprehend.

  I see You in the cooling drowsiness of fall, when the leaves turn to burning flames of color just before giving up their lives and letting go to return to the ground, giving their sacrifices of nourishment for the new coming season.
  As sleep calls to all of nature with its whispers and lullaby's of rest, even the empty, barren trees, revealing the dank, moist, dirt  floors of mountains and the lazy, empty mowed fields are beautiful to me. Almost every living thing is lulled to sleep so that it can gain new strength to rise again in a few short months with new energy and life and beauty for me to greedily enjoy once more.

  I see Your presence in the soft, fleecy 'down' blanket of fresh, fluffy, new fallen snow of winter covering the ground like a warm, cozy quilt, and doing its balancing act on the branches of trees as it gives me object lessons on the pure, clean holiness that will someday be mine because of Your incredible love and sacrifice.

All these things, and much, much more...I know You're here...I feel You loving me...making me feel so special and secure. But, at the same time it frustrates me, and makes me yearn for the ability to fully receive Your love, and return it more deeply and sincerely. 

Deep inside me there's a void, an emptiness, a longing to let You in...take You in...absorb You! I want to see You...hear You...feel You. I want to experience You! And I want to love You more and more and more...
 
Yes, even in the midst of all of this indescribable glory and beauty of nature, and the sweet, life-giving attentiveness of my precious loved ones--certainly You have given me Your best--still I find that there remains this horrible unexplainable, nagging void...this emptiness...this hunger for something...something more...something missing...

Maybe its because I wasn't made for this world...maybe its because my spirit longs for another...
Maybe...just maybe...its a Divine Emptiness...