God, You've Brought Me This Far...

DEPRESSION...oppression...anxiety...confusion...abandonment...despair!
What is this?! What's happening to me...AGAIN?!

These crazy, mixed up, confusing, life and spirit-draining emotions!!!

They crawl into my heart and head and body, out of nowhere. One minute I'm feeling fine, then suddenly...overwhelmingly...I feel like running...hiding...covering my head...crying...quitting!

It all comes on in a moment...like a horrible creeping fog. That desolate feeling as it must have been like in my favorite novels, Wuthering Heights or Jane Eyer...like the moving in of the eery mists over the moors...swallowing up my heart, my mind, my spirit in its engulfing, suffocating, inescapable grasp.

I can't shake this! No matter how hard I try...
"Oh, God!...Please hurry!...and set me free from this horrible, desolate feeling of  unexplainable depression and despair...AGAIN!"

Yes, it happens, often. I can't explain it. No one can understand it unless they've experienced it.
And I've learned what I have to do, IMMEDIATELY!
I run to my Father and stay with Him no matter how long it takes to find peace.
He's the only one who knows what and why this is happening to me...AGAIN.
He experienced all this, and much, much more during His walk as a man on this earth...
and He did it so that He COULD fully understand what I face and feel on my journey here.

"In my despair I cried unto the Lord, and He heard me... 
     For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are..."