Candle In The Darkness...

Black clouds have gathered round me!
I no longer see the light!
This darkness will destroy me,
Lord, I've lost my will to fight!

How long, Lord! Oh how long?!
Will You forever Hide Your face?!
Will You not light the way for me?!
Am I to lose this race?!

"I'm HERE, My child! BELIEVE IT!
Your long journey's almost O'er.
You're doing fine. Just trust Me!
Don't despair!...A few miles more.

Remember those who need you.
Think on THEM! For you must be,
Their Candle in the Darkness.
You must light their way to Me!"

Lord, help me to remember THEM,
With every step I take.
Give grace, to shine in darkness!
E'en if only for their sake!!

How Does Humanity Love Deity...

Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.

Father,
I have an unquenchable longing inside me to deeply "love" You...a Being I can't really see, touch, hear. How can I do this? How can I actually "LOVE" You, and know that I'm "LOVING" You?

What is LOVE to You? How do You want it expressed and proven? I'm warned to guard my feelings and emotions, but all I know of LOVE revolves around these human senses.

I need peace in my heart! I need my faith somehow validated by You, Father. Is it wrong for me to feel this way? But I can no longer trust human beings to reassure me concerning my spiritual issues.

I want to love You...I NEED to love You...
but I don't know how.
I believe I love You, but do I...can I...truly?
Is it possible in this sin-cursed body and world to love a Holy God, and somehow prove my love?

You command me to love You. But You also say, if I love You I'll keep Your commandments. Problem is, I can't keep Your commandments. That's why You had to come and die.

So what am I to do...what is "LOVING YOU?!"

You lived in human flesh. You know the human need to "feel" security and assurance. Even You knew as a Man, that You had been "forsaken" by Your Father-God. You felt He had left You...and it tormented You.

My heart LONGS to really know and love You. But just saying it doesn't make it true. And the harder I try to figure it out and get closer to You, the more my heart and spirit seem empty.

So all I can do is keep seeking You with all my heart. You promised if I do that, I will find You.

Please, Father...don't hide Your face from me! I need You!

And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.

I Cry With My Voice...

 

 I wonder if God has to pull us into the darkness, where we can see nothing, in order to draw us closer to Him...

Those horrible, dark , black hole times. The times when we really deal with things that we never would have, had we not gone through them.

The times when we cry in desperation--with our voice--out loud.

When we open up our deepest, innermost issues, and actually hear them, instead of continuing to keep them buried deep...festering within our hearts and spirits.

Sometimes its the only way. We hear from deep inside ourselves. Only then are we able to get at the root of our problems.

Perhaps its just another phase God uses to help us to dig it up...open it up...get it out.

It's often very painful to see ourselves, and our issues...as they really are. 

But that's the only way God can reveal our weaknesses, and show us the path we need to take.
 

I cried unto the Lord with my voice; with my voice unto the Lord did I make my supplication. 

I poured out my complaint before him; I shewed before him my trouble. 

When my spirit was overwhelmed within me, then thou knewest my path.